No, the irony is not lost on me. I am well aware that I am mostly unemployed, and yes, there are degrees of unemployment much like Miracle Max made a solid case for levels of being dead. When I say, "mostly unemployed," I don't have a consistent paycheck of any kind. Obviously the word "job" has been on my mind a lot lately, and it never actually occurred to me until today that I might be committing two types of fraud. First, I've hired myself out for a position that I'm not at all qualified for, and assumed the responsibilities thereof for which no amount of training could actually adequately prepare me. In addition to lack of training, I have no real-world experience, and anyone who has seen me attempt to operate in this capacity could testify that I'm an absolute failure. My resume is replete with empty spaces and I just can't seem to find anyone who was willing to be a reference. You see, the first sin I'm guilty of is trying to do the job that only GOD can do. He's the only One qualified, the only One who can handle all the AUTHORITY and POWER that is required to be my PROVIDER. He's capable because He has NEVER FAILED, and His STRENGTH is PERFECT. He has been SOVEREIGNLY PROVIDING since before the foundation of the world because He is ETERNAL. His job history is flawless and one need look no further than the BIBLE for a list of people who could vouch for His FAITHFULNESS. Not to mention that His FATHER would attest to His ability to get the job done. He began the work, and He is a MASTER at FINISHING what He starts. Yes, He has great follow-through. So, why do I, why do we, steal the job that belongs to Him who can do it better? I am incapabale, ignorant and lack resources. He has everything at His disposal. Secondly, because I am so busy doing the wrong job, I'm not able to do MY job well. In all my searching for jobs, I've neglected to accept that I already HAVE one. The Israelites were NOT responsible for providing for themselves; God made it clear that was His responsibility, but they were not without focus and purpose. Their job is found in Deuteronomy 13:4 and 30: 19-20, listed simply as walking after the Lord, fearing Him, keeping His commandments, obeying His voice, serving Him, and holding fast to Him. Yes! Those are what I need to be fully investing in, and learning to do well. He will train me as I stay focused on MY job, and let HIM do HIS. He is the best OWNER, MANAGER, TRAINER, EMPLOYER of all time. Oh God,help us do the jobs you have assigned us to do rather than the one we fight you for: that of being God. Forgive us for trying to do such an underhanded thing by stealing what is Yours. You're the only One who can provide for only You are sovereign. Help us trust you to do your job well, for you do all things well. And train us Lord, to hold fast to you as we follow Your leading. WE need YOU; YOU do not need US. Oh, thank you for reminding me of that.
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